I thought I was doing well with my month of discipline, and from a diet and ‘time with God’ perspective I have been. But today has been severely aggravating as I’ve spent over two hours collectively on the phone with Verizon technical support. My issue with my video service upgrade is still not resolved (even though we got to a point where we thought it was), and my frustration boiled over with the last tech support representative with whom I spoke.
Although I was not mean to that person, I was stern, the volume in my voice well above average, and my increasing loss of patience evident to the person on the other end of the line. The call ended – problem still not resolved, technician coming out on Tuesday – and my daughter called me out.
She called me out for letting the whole situation get to me. She called me out for not taking a breath and trying to relax through it all. She called me out for not handling the situation better (i.e. with more grace). Did I mention she’s only fifteen?
And she’s right. Through it all, not once did I think to slow down and pray. Not once did I remind myself it’s not the fault of the tech support rep that my video service isn’t working. All I could think of was the amount of money I pay per month for this t0 not be working, and how I was missing the Final Four. In that moment, I needed serenity, and I completely failed (and set a bad example in the process).
I came to my laptop to post my blog for tonight before heading out to the movies with the kids. The wallpaper on my laptop is this image from the TV show Firefly.
It’s funny that for as often as I see it, or for how intentional I try to be, it’s so easy to lose sight of that reminder; find your serenity.
We’re off to Universal Studios to take in a concert by Skillet. Not only do they rock, their music is message-filled. Few things in life are better than worship music that makes you headbang in the process.
“Four thousand are to be gatekeepers and for thousand are to praise the Lord with the musical instruments I have provided for that purpose.”
Normally I just post a picture for my Serenity Saturday post. However, I haven’t written all week, and I wanted to get back into the groove after taking somewhat of a mental Spring Break.
I got out on my motorcycle this afternoon and cruised around Pasco County. For me, it never gets old seeing the large tracks of land, the cattle, and the orange groves that make up scenery of my favorite motorcycle routes. It was an extra treat to be able to get out on the bike considering it had sat for so long in my garage.
Riding my motorcycle is such a stress reliever for me. It’s amazing how the hum of the engine and the howl of the wind can so easily clear my mind. No worrying about household chores and bills and work assignments. No fretting over honey-do lists and house projects and schedules. Just me, my bike, and the open road.
It reminds me of the lyrics from one of my favorite songs; Billy Joel’s ‘Vienna’. “Slow down you crazy child, take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while.” And that’s what I did. Disappeared from the world for about an hour or two. And it was great.
I think it’s important to step out of reality from time to time. To just let go of everything that you’ve got going on. To reset.
So wherever you find your peace, be it an open road or an open book, don’t be afraid to lose yourself for a while.
“Henceforth I ask not good-fortune, I myself am good-fortune, Henceforth I whimper no more, postpone no more, need nothing, Done with indoor complaints, libraries, querulous criticisms, Strong and content I travel the open road.”
“Yes, there will be an abundance of flowers and singing and joy! The deserts will become as green as the mountains of Lebanon, as lovely as Mount Carmel or the plain of Sharon. There the Lord will display his glory, the splendor of our God.”