Jesus Was A Badass

Earlier this month I was blessed to be able to get out of our old SUV and into a new car. Modernized technology, better fuel economy, working air conditioner: it was really nice to be ‘out with the old and in with the new’. After many hours finalizing everything at the dealership, Lee and I sat in the car ready to drive it home.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw a man waving at us in the dealership’s parking lot. Still focusing on getting the mirrors adjusted and the seat just right, I simply assumed it was someone from the dealership that needed to tell us one last thing about the car. I opened the window, and the young man asked me a question. With a saddened and distressed look in his eyes, he asked if I would call the police because he was seriously thinking of killing himself.

We did call the police*. Our sales rep at the dealership came over and spoke with him (and he was great with the man, BTW). I simply stood in the background, motionless and quiet. I can’t explain why, but I was terrified. I didn’t know what to do nor what to say. I allowed perceptions and ill-conceived notions to cloud my head, and on my way home, I cried because I was ashamed. In a moment of ministry, I slinked into a corner and let others do the work.

If I claim to be a Christ follower, why was it that in that very moment, I did the exact opposite of what Jesus himself would have done? Jesus would have reached out to that man in compassion. I thought only of myself and held back. Jesus would have offered love and understanding. I offered skepticism and cautious hesitation. Jesus would have been fearless (as he always was). I let fear divert me from what He was calling me to do.

We don’t often think of Jesus as fearless. We don’t think of Him as the guy who didn’t concern himself with the opinions of others. You never hear anyone refer to Christ as a badass. But think about it. He really was. He challenged the status quo. He compelled others to think beyond their human limitations, and to act out of love and service for others. He tactfully turned the manipulation of those who opposed him into learning experiences for all. Jesus’ deft way about Him was truly badass.

This morning I was walking into Starbucks, my eyes cloudy and groggy from not getting enough sleep. A man at a table outside the store looked at me and said, “Good morning.” I don’t think I acknowledged him. I remember my first (and selfish) thought being, “I don’t have time for this right now.”

I went inside, ordered my coffee, and waited. Your typical Starbucks routine. As I waited, the image of the man from the car dealership popped in my head. I remembered the redness in his eyes from the crying he’d been doing. I remembered his body language, full of pain and yearning. I heard a voice in my head say, “You DO have time for this.”

The barista called my name. I grabbed my coffee and headed out the door.

“You DO have time for this.”

I turned to the man outside and wished him a good morning. I sat at the table with him and just started talking. I asked him if he’d had breakfast yet (he hadn’t). I then let him speak to me about his recent troubles. We chit-chatted for a while. His name is Ron. He an Italian-German former truck driver who’s apparently traversed Pinellas and Hillsborough counties by foot. He went on to tell me he is a disciple of God. I told him I like to think of myself as one too. Then, as if by instinct, I reached out, grabbed his arm, and we prayed.

Others were walking in and out of the store. I could feel their glances. I could almost hear them think to themselves, “What the hell?” But in that moment, I didn’t care. In that moment, I was obedient to His calling and what it was He wanted me to do. In that moment, I followed Jesus’ example and reached out to a brother in need. I like to think it made a difference for Ron, but I honestly will never know. I can, however, tell you it made a difference for me.

This morning’s experience with Ron was uplifting. It was also personally rewarding. And in many ways, it was very badass.

“But my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus—the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.”

Acts 20:24 NLT

No Fear

*Lee followed up the next morning with the Pasco County Sheriff’s office and was able to confirm the man had been Baker-acted and taken to a hospital. 

12 thoughts on “Jesus Was A Badass

  1. You are completely, totally, 100% badass, my friend!! I love, love, love, hearing about how God is moving in your life and have really begun to long to hear stories like this. Isn’t it unreal how he can change our preconceived our notions of uncomfortable situations into ones that transform us into exactly who and what He created us to be! Thank you for sharing this! I’m 100% positive someone else will reach out to someone in need because of it. Me included!

    1. Thanks so much, Lindsey. It’s amazing what we can do when we stop listening to the “_ssholes” in our heads, and when we get “our heads out of our _sses.” (I miss writing with you guys).

      It’s pretty amazing to think how something as simple as reading a verse or two per day translates into a stronger spiritual self after two years of doing it. I know I will still fail in moments of truth, but I also know I am more likely to put aside the fears and try to do something.

      Thanks to you and Jeff for being such an inspiration to me as well as such amazing friends.

    1. So very true, Regina. There’s no such thing as “too late to start”. KB was telling us a story last week about an artist who started his craft …. at the age of 80.

      I follow Joyce Meyer on Facebook, and she had this post yesterday: ‘It’s never too late for a fresh start with God”.

  2. Dude. WOW! All I can say is WOW! I remember a man named Gil that I met about 5 years ago and the Gil that wrote this blog post is not him. Although he resemble him, this new Gil has a different passion. This new Gil is becoming the man of God that he was destine to be. I love watching how Jesus is using you in the everyday circumstances of life to bring extraordinary transformation to the situation. You missed one opportunity but the incredible thing about God is He is the God of the second chance and third chance and forth chance and on and on for that matter. You operated this morning out of Loving Christ with all you Heart, Soul, Mind, and Strength. Proud of your simple obedience. It challenged me.

    1. Thank you so much, Paul, and I know my transformation and continued faith journey would not be possible if not for the direction, inspiration, and education Relevant has provided me. This morning’s experience may have been a reflection of His will, but it is also a result of you listening to His calling and planting Relevant Church in our community. It’s so very exciting to be a part of making God famous and building His kingdom here on earth. Thank you for the continued wisdom and guidance.

  3. Gil, I really enjoy reading your blogs and the transparency that it reveals as you walk with Christ. While I read this one it reminded me of a popular song on christian radio by Matthew West – Do Something Many times we fail to realize that he will use US for HIS glory while here on this earth, as you pointed out in the verse from Acts. Thanks for sharing with us and I hope to catch up with you soon.

    1. Thanks for the kind words, Jorge, and for the continued support (and for my blog post topic for tomorrow) 🙂 I am familiar with Matthew West, but I did not know that so. It’s great. I love his “Hello My Name Is” song ( It fills me up with so much energy every time I hear it.

      I hope you’re doing well, and we do need to catch up soon.

  4. Your authenticity in sharing these two experiences touched me, Gil, and I think most of your readers could say we have been in similar situations…fearful of saying the wrong thing (that might cause a suicidal person to lose even more hope) and then responding well the next time we have an opportunity to be genuine with someone who might have been lonely, just needing a touch of human kindness. What I saw in your first experience was that God had you there for that man to reach out to, and you did. You sought help for him, and then God allowed the salesman to do his part to help. The man you wanted to help actually got to see strong men reaching out to assist. Bravo! I think God smiled when He saw your compassion. Thank you for the great remainder to always be ready to reach out.

    1. Belated thanks for the comments, CJ, and thank you for the new perspective. I never thought about it the way you presented it, as me being there for him to call for help.

      I hope every experience is a learning experience. As my marketing professor once said, “If you aren’t learning, you’re dying.” God teaches me something new every day, and that’s part of what makes this faith journey so exciting.

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