“…greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right. Greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of it’s forms – greed for life, for money, knowledge – has marked the upward surge of mankind….” I used to believe in these words. I used to believe in relentless pursuit of self worth. But something happened on the way to Wall Street.
I have realized that greedy people tend to be unhappy people. For greed is implicitly self serving. Greed is exclusive. Greed works … for only the person who is greedy. And happiness, IMHO, cannot be found in the absence of other people. Can a person who is raised by wolves and never interacts with another human being ever really be happy?
So this must mean that happiness is found in temperance and humility. It is found in the appreciation of others and their well being. As a person, at what point do you put your greed aside for the benefit of someone else? As a parent, at what point do you draw the line between the welfare of your child and the pursuit of self worth? How do we deal with the ironic question that is, “If your pursuit of happiness makes the one you love sad, can you really be happy should you capture your pursuit?” At what point do we have to let go of a dream or desire? When it’s no longer attainable, or when we realize that attaining it causes pain in someone else’s life?
I know the answers to these questions are not absolute, and are driven by the scenarios and circumstances that create the question in the first place. What I don’t know is how to let go of happiness for the sake of someone else’s happiness? When there are no guarantees in life, how do you walk away from something you feel is a sure thing? How do you start over after you have invested so much time, energy and tears? How many more question marks can I use in this blog entry?
Like I said earlier, there are no guarantees in life. As like I’ve written before, sometimes you just have to go with what you know and feel is right …. no matter how painful it may be. We fill our lives with questions, and we often ask others to provide the answers. And sometimes, the answer has been right in front of us all along. I guess that’s what happens when you spend too much time looking up at a dream and not enough time looking straight ahead at life.
PS. Learning to let go is the first step…….